school journal

[dark2nightmare]

so i dont have time to write in here tonight....but really not much happend today so here just a bit...

i went to school

went to math, understood nothing

went to the acidemic lab, got even more confused

went to speech class, watched a movie of speechs and did something for outlines...

went back to the acidemic lab...sort of understand stuff now....

went to graphics class and im gonna put some detail in here cause its important.

So I walked into the building where graphics class is, and I saw Matthew wondering around, he looked like he was going to class so i followed him. when we go to the room i said to him, i dont know why but i feel like i want to punch you in the face. and he said, a lot of people get that feeling from me. so then we looked into the room and people in the class before ours were still in there. so i was like im just going to follow you around. hes like ok, im going to go bug tim. so im like whos tim? hes like the fat guy. so i say which one? he laughed and said the really fat one. im just like ok...

so then we went to the little waiting room thing. the teacher was there, and some people in class were there. but tim wasnt there. so matthew is like wtf where is he? so we sit at a table. and talk about random things...music, his shoes, something about what people were eatting...so eventually we walked to the class room.

he walked faster than me (hey hes taller than me)...so then in class i like almost had a break down. i was like laughing for no reason and then i was like about to cry, the people in front of me were like are you ok? and im just like its been a long day. all matthew said was the best laughs are the ones when you dont know why.

i kind of know why, i got only 4 hrs of sleep last night cause of this stupid geography paper....pissing me off....and because i kept thinking of weird things that i saw on adult swim like on aqua teen hunger force. so yeah....

then class started it was boring, we went over something i forget what...

then while we were working on the current project...i went to sit by matthew for a few seconds...i was just looking at what he was doing....i showed him somethings that he did that he didnt need to do and stuff...and i asked him again about how he was getting home....cause it was dark out and rainy and he has to walk home....cause he cant drive....i almost offered him a ride...but i didnt cause i wasnt sure if i had enough gas, and i propbably wouldnt know how to get home....

anyways then i left...

[dark2nightmare]

another just breif thing...still not done with that damn geography paper....

so on my way to school it was raining a lot.....my car hydroplaned HORRIBLY i was sliding into the other lane....some how i got back in the right lane and nothing bad happend but still i was freaking out....shaking littlerally...and screaming....

so when i got to school i parked in the back...and walked in the rain to class.....geography

we had a test....i probably did ok? i hope....

so then i went to the acidemic lab and worked on my math home...which i still need to finish....7 graphs before class....

so then i went to printing.....i got all my stuff sent after doing them like a million times....>.<

then i hung out in the dark room with JB Rachel and the other Tiffany.....that was fun....

then i went home

[dark2nightmare]

ok so....basics.....

went to school....hadnt finished math homework....went to acidemic lab.....still didnt finish homework.....then went to class.....didnt turn in home work....had quiz....fucking rocked it!!!...then went back to acidemic lab to work on new homework....got half way done....went to speech class.....boring....need to give a speech next week, dont know what on yet....then went back to acidemic lab....finished it all but 1...then went to graphics class....matthew wasnt there........then got new assignment calander....end

[dark2nightmare]

thrusday.....nothing really happend.....just went to geography,...got my test back, got a 73 on it,,,not bad for not studing....then went to the acidemic lab to finish homework...finished it....then went to printing....stayed in the shop...finished a project...then sat in the computer lab for the rest of class....went home

[dark2nightmare]

friday nothing happend....had math class....really starting to understand this stuff...got my quiz back got an A!!!! then after class went to the acidemic lab....the hot dude with the weird arm...and the muscelur dude were there....and some chick...the muscelur dude mostly helped me...and i got through half the home work.....they closed...so i had to leave....then i went home and got all my math home work done all by myself....

this weekend i need to write my speech...and if theres time work on that FUCKING STUPID ASS GEOGRAPHY PAPER....

[dark2nightmare]

today sorta sucked ass.....

so yeaah what happend....

went to school....went to math class....teacher seemed like I don't know proud of me, for doing being like the only one who did the work...and doing it right....but then there was one problem i just asked like one thing about it, and he filpped out....

then we had a quiz....and i think i did good on that...

so then i went to the acidemic lab to just do the graphs on some problems cause the book didnt say to do the graphs but he said on the test we would do them...so yeah i did those and i had no questions on them or anything....but yeah it was pretty easy....

so then i just walked over to my favorite on campus...and played my game boy....thats when matthew walked by....he said i looked comfortable....i just said well yeah i am....

then i went to speech class....not too bad of a day there... i just listend to speeches....i have to give mine tomorrow.....and i still dont know what to do it on.... or i might just go with what i have....im not sure though if it is informative or informative enough....

so then i went and walked over to where graphics class is....and no one was there....so i went back out side for awhile and played more game boy...then i went back inside....

now some people were there...matthew was there...i didnt know wth they were talking about....but i found out that matthew gives blood for his rent...like plasma....and then from that has moeny to pay the rent.....so yeah....this is also when he mentenited he has a girlfriend....I don't know why but for some reason that really pissed me off....

then i went to class...and started working on my calander....didnt even pay attention to what mr.eckel said...then after the lecture matthew started asking me stuff about the assignment since he wasnt there the day it was assigned....this is when i realized how much of a geek i am...just an answer person...some one to cheet off of...copy off of....ect....

i still told him what he asked about...but I don't know...i serisouly felt like crying in a corner...because no one likes me...and i feel like no one will ever like me....and whats so wrong with me....that no one ever wants to be my friend or boy friend...or anything...

[dark2nightmare]

tuesday october 13

was a pointless day

went to geograhpy and litterally sat there and did nothing.....i drew a pic of a vampirer

went to printing and kepted working on this brick company brochure thing....

then i went home...

[dark2nightmare]

today was well hecktic...

i got to school a bit early and had time to study over stuff for the math test...

eventually more of the people in the class showed up.....i told some people that the money rate stuff wasnt going to be on the test....cause i serisouly thought thats what the teacher said......

but then in class on the test there was one of those kinds of questions......so i think i fucked it up....but i think over all i did ok on the test...

also we got our quizes back....i got almost everything write...i just didnt take the last problem out far enough...

so then i went to the acidemic lab to print out my speech....when i pasted it from my email....it was fucked up on the formating.....so i spent half an hour fixing that.....but then i left forgetting to print out two outlines.....>.<

so then i went to my car to sit in while it was raining and work on my speech....i stayed in my car waaaaaaay too long......i only had 7 minutes to get to class.....so i was hauling ass.....class was on the other side of campus on the 3rd floor...no time to wait for the elevator so i had to run up the stairs...i was fucking out of breath by the time i got to class...and my throat was dry....

so i calmed down while others gave their speeches....but when aaron went to give his speech i sat out in the hall to get a fucking drink.....so then after that i went back when aaron was done with his speech....i told the teacher that i forgot to make a second copy of my speech and he just had me go across the hall to have it copyed....i did then i gave my speech

it sucked so bad.......i was ok though through some of it...but i really messed up this one spot...oh well...

but the comments i got made me feel better....

so then i had an hour before graphics....so i bought a fanta and walked around campus drinking acting like a drunk lunatic....then i went inside and took a nap....

then when i got to class like a few minutes before class time....racheal was like where were you we were wondering where you were....i was like i was asleep...seemed more important....

so then i sat by matthew...he said nothing....then class started....didnt understand anything mr.eckel was talking about.....then worked on my calander....finished it....and put it in the right folders and stuff and left....

end

[dark2nightmare]

so friday was boring....

went to math class...got back my test...i got a C on it....so not bad but not that great....

he gave us a make up test to do if we wanted to...so i took it...we got to do it as home work...

after class i went to the acidemic lab...i did all the home work except the make up test....then they had to close so i had to leave...

end

[dark2nightmare]

So today was October 24, a Friday. But I want talk about what has happend this whole week too. I just feel like I need to remember this in the future.

So it all began Sunday. My computer died. Had a whole ordeal with HP...on tech support...figuring out if they can help me or not, because was warrenty was over due...I couldnt afford to have it renewed. But they said they could fix it for free, and it would be done with in a week, meaning 7 bussiness days. But they said to have the files extracted from best buy...first.

So then Monday happend. I went to school, and I went to math class...i forget what happend but i did go to the acidemic lab after wards...i got all my homework done...then I went for a walk cause there was no speech class that day....pretty boring really just found a new favorite spot....its under a pine tree at the top of the hill where you can see all the cars for the intersection, its relaxing really. So then I went to graphics class....and eckle was boring as ever he gave us a new assignment to make a chart. which was an add on assignment since we skipped quark....it outdated software anyways.... ....then i worked on that a bit and left.....

Tuesday...was the worst and best day......I got the box to ship to HP....so I had a test that day in Geography so I had to go to school for that...but then i had untill 3 to go to best buy...so my mom shows up to school...and we go to best buy after i took my geography test....which i thought i did ok on....so at best buy...woah was it crazy...i had to wait in line for over 10 minutes...it took like an hour or so just to drive up there...on the total opposite side of town... ....so yeah we got there waited in line over 10 minutes..then finally it was my turn...the dude behind the counter says it would take like 1 to 2 weeks for them to do it...but it might be less time..it was 100 bucks to get the files off my computer...but they said we would get like 60 bucks back if the file was less then...like whatever...which the one file i wanted would be....so yeah we thought we would get 60 ::)bucks back.......so then after a huge ordeal (inwhich i slammed my head against the dudes counter top or whatever the fuck)...we payed them 100 bucks to get the files...and left my compy with them and left.....then we went to eat chinese...by the time we got back to school my printing class was already 30 minutes in...so i was just like fuck it....

so the wednesday.....wasnt so bad of a day...went to math class....turned in home work...were told we have a quiz over it friday....then i went to the acidemic lab...and i think some of the tutors there are really sick of seeing me...the one big muscular dude helped me mostly...but it sucked...because he didnt know wtf we were doing..... ......so then i went to speech class...and listend to people give their speeches...then the teacher talked about the quiz were taking on monday...and wednesday would be the sign up day for speeches...with all the shit that im doing im taking the last day.... ....so yeah...then i went back to the acidemic lab...and this time..the dude with the weird arm helped me and he understood what i was doing...so YAY i think his names john....and of course even with his weird arm i think hes cute.....I don't know what it is about dudes named john...weird....anyways...so then i went to graphics...and the pics that leah found for me were awesome...i serisouly owe her...so we worked on the charts...i worked on mine a bit and left....

so then thursday was ok i guess....i got to school later..I don't know how that happend really...so then i just went to geography was 30 minutes late...but they were just talking about chapter 6...so yeah didnt really miss much.... ...then i went to printing and we all cleaned up the lab...and i finished my brick brochure thingy....and then i started the next assignment, while i was doing that...mrconaway and JB were talking bad about barak again, usually it dosent bother me...but then chad called him funny face, and then we all gave him a funny look...he said because its colored in or something....and i thought he was so cool....idiot... then i left.....when i got home i was talking to my mom about something and then we called best buy...and they were saying all this crazy stuff...that they were doing with my computer...and i was pissed off ....so then my mom got on the phone and she was pissed off ....so she thought she had set them straight...but i knew the next day we needed to go down there....

so then friday, today, i went to school....went to math class...then we talked about the next section...and took a quiz...i still need to go graph paper for that.... ...anyways...so then after class i went to my car and tryed to call my mom no answer...so then i decied that i would go back inside and use the computer to find out what study for the chp 6 test in geography....i got that information...then tryed calling her again still nothing...so then i went home....tryed her from home...nothing...then i got worried maybe something had happend to her....then i started thinking about what chad said...and how something bad might have happend to leah since i haddent heard from either...and i cried ...so then i called my dad no answer...figured he was driving...but he did call me back...said moms battery was low...so yeah...then i thought leah might just be out of minutes or something....anyways...sio eventually mom comes home...and she calls my dad cause i forgot when he said he was coming home....but yeah its soon...so i was saying that i want to go down there and make sure that they are doing what they are suppose to be doing and nothing else....so after we give dad his car back...we go to best buy and get lost along the way... ...so then when we get there my moms already like pissed off cause we were debating about polotics...and i think i won ( OBAMA 08 - 12!!!! ) so then when we went inside the people were just incompate....and they were pissing me off but they really pissed off my mom...she got so mad it was like crazy awesome!!!! ;D ...even after the lady was like mame i need to file that or something my mom just walked away...what happend was...they were not suppose to back up everything on my computer just that one file....nothing more...we were suppose to get 60 bucks back...which we didnt...and my mom was saying we cant afford to not get the 60 bucks back..but the chick behind the counter was just like..well you just all the files then anyways....she didnt understand that we need that money....like fucking dumb chick...and when my mom just walked out of there...i was standing there for a second stunded not knowing what to do....i felt like flipping them off and leaving...but i didnt...i just left...and the dude by the counter was like thanks for coming to best buy...when i left....i felt like telling him...thanx for what..getting screwed..........but i didnt ...just left....so yeah thats it i got my files i needed though...and a lot that i didnt need... ......but at least i got what i needed....and i didnt get incaresrated!!!! but i wont say why because it could incriminate me...so yeah....then i just went home....tomorrow were having a party...wish you guys could be there...

[dark2nightmare]

I havent written in here in I don't know how long...

So Im gonna write about whats been happening lately...

In math class, Im doing pretty good, were almost done with everything in there...right now were learning about elipses...and its sooo easy i might not even go to the acidemic lab for it...

In speech, I gave another one like two weeks ago...I did it about how to use Illustrator CS3...I wasn't sure if it was a process speech or not...but no one said it wasnt including the teacher...when i gave the speech I had a very small audience...so I think thats why I did better...then sometime last week in that class.. I think I pissed off the teacher...all I was doing was drawing, I was listening to what he was saying, but I was drawing too....I mean so what....gah!..anyways, on wednesday i have to give another speech, which has to be preswaysive...I think Im going to write about video game violence, dose not make anyone more violent...

in my graphics class things are going ok i guess...we just finished making a news letter, we had to make it for like...a catholic high school...which was totally gay...but i did it, and i think it was pretty kick ass... ;D but I don't know what the teacher thought...or what i got on it yet....now were working on a catalog.... ....its like about wood fixtures....so yeah...mine sucks so far...it will most likely turn out very gay and crappy...but I don't know...either way...gotta do it...also, this one chick in the class is bring us ice cream on monday...so im excited about that.. ;D

then theres geography...i think everyone in that class hates me, even the one chick that sits by me...sure she talks to me sometimes...but still...im doing really bad in that class too...and i try soooo hard...ive failed 3 tests so far....shes going to drop one of them before my final grade..and if i do an extra credit assignment that would knock out one of them too...so then it would be like i only failed one test....which would help out my grade a lot....ive still got a C....but I need a B atleast...and its too late to just drop it...plus im trying not to drop classes anymore...cause then it will take forever for me to graduate.... so yeah....anyways...

printing, is a lot of fun, but still sucks...weve got sooooooo much work to do...ive got lots of flim that needs to be made into a flat, and its fricking hard...i hate it....im nooooooot a printer, if ive learned anything at all thats it...im not a printer... ...but at least i met racheal....but it sucks, cause shes gonna graduate next semister...and ill still be in school and stuck here, shes probably gonna move to arkansas with her boyfriend...not like i wouldnt do the same thing if it was me... ...but still its like, i just finally made a friend, and then she leaves...it always happens that way, i make a friend and then they leave....

so i guess thats whats been happening....gah!

[dark2nightmare]

So heres whats been happening at school like last week i guess...

so ok...so math class, i didnt do the elipses homework, like the majority of the class...so i didnt turn it in...but then he was like were having a quiz over it next class...so i wasnt sure if i should do the elipses homework or if i should do the hyperbolas...i asked one of the tutors and she said i should do, the elipses....so i did, and i was glad i did...because then the teacher collected it after the quiz....i think i fucked up on the parabolas though.... ...

but after the quiz this one guy in class, like followed me out of the room, and i was like running down the stairs...and hes like, how did you do on the quiz?...and i was like, i think i fucked up the parabolas...and i forget what he was saying...but the point is he asked, and then when we got outside he was like saying he gets to go home now, and i was like, i gotta give a speech still...and hes like that sucks...and then he said, ill see ya later...and walked off in another direction...

so then in speech class...i gave another, speech on wednesday the 26...from the comments i got, it seemed like i did a whole lot better then the last few times, but i really was nervous...i had this twitchy knot in my stomache...and I don't know...i was nervous but i wasnt trying to show it....

I don't know what i got on that speech yet though....

so then, theres graphics class i skipped it on wednesday...and on monday chalamar brought everyone ice cream....it was good...and then in class i listend to serverus snape the whole time... ....were still working on this wood stuff catalog...its totally gay...i think ill just let mine be gay, because I don't care... ;D

so then theres geography...my teacher gave me back that fucking paper i worked sooooooooooo hard on...i got an A the teacher complemented me twice on my good writing...she said it reminded her of a mystery writter that she likes....so thats awesome...and then i took another test, which i probably failed...o.O so its a good thing i did the extra credit....but I don't know how much it will end up helping, but it probably doesnt hurt.... ...anyways....

ok so printing....has been fun and weird and with loads of work... ...still got to finish stripping my 3 color project...i was working on it the last class, but then like mr.conaway left, me, JB, and Tammy still working in the shop...and when mr.conaway left....and Tammy was in the other room, JB was like Tiffany, your not very religious are you?

and i was like, no not really...i mean I don't care if anyone else is, but its just not my thing...and i forget what all happend after that...but for some reason it just really bothered me... ....

anyways i guess thats all for now

[dark2nightmare]

finals coming up soon....so much to do.....plus its almost my birthday...and also....i actually want to have a party this year....but from everyones scheduals including mine it looks like i might not have one...again.... ...so I don't know....but lots of school stuff to go over....gotta get schedualed for next semister...

[xXxAnG.eLaxXx]

That sucks.

[dark2nightmare]

things have gotten much worse since i last wrote in here...

i cant get schedualed for next semister until this semister is paid for...i still owe the school over $700 dollars...and its like crazy because i had A+ money...and we owed $600 dollars...now that i have a pell grant i have over $700 dollars owed...

all the classes i want to take and need to take are already full...and right now it just seems like there is no way i can get schedualed for next semister anyways....but I don't know...

on monday, december 8th 2008...we had an appointment with a fincial aid person...so, thats what we (me and my mom) found out was that, now that i have a pell grant i am ending up owing the school more money...so if i dont get this semister paid for i cant go to school next semister....

after getting verrrrrry stressed out about this shit, and seeing my mom get verrrry angery and cry ...i had to go take my math test...needless to say, it was the worst test i have taken in that class yet....i got a 50 out of 100...O.O...yeah horrible..

so then after class i didnt want to do anything or go anywhere or talk to anyone...but i called my mom to see what she was doing...but she didnt answer, so i called home to see what was going on...my dad answered and said my mom was still at the school...so i just hung up...

i went to my favorite spot on campus, the tree on top of the hill over looking the traffic...it was reallly cold out side and windy...i cryed ....and i wrote (what i wrote in the venting thing)...

and i just sat there and tryed not to cry, because it was so cold i was worried i would get sick...

after half an hour, i went inside to get warm...i just sat on one of the couches, and just stared at this flickering light, and just wondered why someone didnt put it out of its misery...

then i had to go to speech class...i think everyone knew i was depressed but didnt know why... ...so then i dont even remember what we did in class...i think that was the day we had to pick a topic out of an evelope and talk about it...

i picked should death notices be on the newspaper...so i didnt know what to say, so i just said lets get rid of the newspaper...

then i just went to graphics class...and waited for everyone to get there...and I don't know...i dont remember what happend before class...but in class i was actually having fun...which was weird...and, i stayed for awhile even though i didnt have to...because i just didnt want to go home...

the next day, i just went to school....just went throught the motions...but then in printing class i brought cupcakes and stuff for the class...and everyone was greatful... ;D

but then on the drive home...it was bad...cause the road had iced over in some places...cause it was hailing pretty bad...while we were in class...

but i got home ok....

so then, today, in school i just went throught the motions again...my head hurt all day... ...just went to math, then the acidemic lab, then speech class, then the acidemic lab, and then graphics class...and then home...

so, yeah tomorrow i have a test in geography...and i should go study for that...peace people...