Post by xXxAnG.eLaxXx on May 10, 2009 21:44:15 GMT -5
I thought I had a grip on it, and it was finally going to go away. It's coming back like it always does when I think it's finally gone. A year. MORE THAN A WHOLE YEAR LIKE THIS! All I can do is tell myself I'm a whiney brat and to get over it. That just makes it worse, but I deserve to feel shitty about it. I am so ashamed of this stupidity. Over and over. Over and over. It won't stop. I can't get rid of it myself, but there is nobody to help me with it. My mom said she was going to do something about it, but she doesn't care anymore! At least if she is she's not showing it. I fear it'll never go away. I feel like I'm ruined for life. It. Just. Won't. Go. Away. It's my own fault, though, no matter what they say. Maybe I don't even have it. I thought I was alright like I was before all the shit at school happened, but it's back again. I should have known better than believe it'd actually just go away by itself. Alright, better get off. Hope you have no idea at all what I'm talking about, because it's so stigmatic.
