bets' school journal!?!?!

[xxbetsaidaxx]

i had to do a presentation yesterday (the poetry one i wrote about the other day) so yeah here's how it went...
i walked into the class and Cheyenne was already there so i told her i've made the copies (we had to make copies of the poems we were analyzing for the whole class) so she was all like yay!... we had signed up to go second but the group that was supposed to go first wasn't ready so mr. mcadams asked us if we wanted to set the bar and go first, i was like omg omg omg no noooo but cheyenne said she wanted to get it over with so i just agreed... i was supposed to go first and talk about her life (Elizabeth Barrett browning's life i mean) so i did that, no one told me to speak up so that was great, but I don't know if my voice was loud enough or if they just didn't want to torture me because they knew how much i suck at speaking... then cheyenne got into my heart and i and the class actually got involved and i actually added to the discussion quite a bit so that was great, then i started talking about mother and poet and we broke it down and started analyzing it but then the bell rang the bell freaking rang!!! we took a WHOLE period, the entire hour, with our socratic presentation!! it was only supposed to be 10-20 mins long but we made it super long and i didn't wish i could just dissaparate and go hide in a cave for the rest of my life even once (if you don't count the beginning of the presentation)

the group that was supposed to go first presented today and they were good, but they read most of the stuff from their notes and stuff and it sounded very copied and pasted , but they took almost the whole period as well so i guess we did set the bar a bit high... and we were also the only group with only two people, it was supposed to be groups of three but there were not enough people... and mr.mcadams told the class that the 'fourth period slackers' hadn't even presented yesterday so that means we were the only ones that were actually ready when we were supposed to be so yay!

[xxbetsaidaxx]

today was a perfect day!! well as perfect as things around here i mean...

i woke up around 5-ish (no nightmares to wake me up!!) i went into the restroom and the scale was nice so i was in a great mood as i washed my face and did my hair, i went back in my room and found some old jeans and a tanktop cause the weather was nice, but then i realized it was extremely windy so i put a sweater over it, my mom made me some oatmeal and fruit and left it on the kitchen before she left but i didn't eat it cause yeah i was in too good of a mood to eat, i walked to the bus stop a few minutes before i usually do and dev was already there (he's not being sent away to hell anymore ) he was standing all the way in the corner and i usually just stay right where the bus stops instead of walking all the way to the corner, but he called me over so i walked all the way there and we just talked about how windy and awesome it was and crap like that... then i got to school and went to mr. o's room to say hi to him and then the bell rang and i went to class and we started talking about blood meridian and about 15 mins into the class mr. mcadams asked the class a question and no one really answered it, and this one girl said "what was the question again?" after he had repeated the question about 5x already, and he just said "you know what? this is ridiculous, i'm more into the book than you guys, i'm about to quit this shit, you can all read the book by yourselves i really don't care" those were his exact words, i don't know why i remember them exactly but i do, then he went to sit at his desk and glared at his computer. after like 10 mins ms. park (the school counselor that's in charge of AP testing) came and told us when the AP test was going to be and all the info about it and crap, then she left and the class got really loud and mr. mcadams said "why are you so happy about? you all should just go back to being quiet and reading, just SHUT UP!! you know if this was an actual college class i would have kicked you all out a long time ago!" he really yelled the shut up part and it felt really weird because he's never ever yelled at the class before i really don't think that we gave him that big of a reason to go crazy like he did, but he was probably just having a bad day so i understand it, i really hope he's happy tomorrow... during second i just read blood meridian before class actually started, well i didn't really read much cause i was talking to gerardo, but yeah during class we just took notes and for the last 20 mins of class i just couldn't pay attention no matter how hard i tried... in third i worked on this really neat glow effect, it's really not classwork or anything cause i'm done with all the work in there, but i have nothing to do on there so yeah i might as well work on something, i would go online but all the good sites are blocked the only thing that's not blocked is aim but no one's ever on at that time ... then lunch, it was pretty mellow, i just went into the library cause of the wind and then a ton of people came in so i just talked to them, it was just extremely relaxed... then during fourth i graded some quizzes for mr. o and listened to my wallflower playlist which i only listen to at night to try to relax and have a good night's sleep but i just felt listening to it... then on the way to fifth i saw dev and i never see him during like school so i said hi to him and walked with him and his friend brenda (i think that's what she said her name was i'm not sure) to class... like always i don't remember what i worked on in POD, it had something to do with voting rights though... something funny happened on the way to fifth, i usually just walk with marcus to his class but this time at the same time i saw marcus i saw gerardo and they both waved at me at exactly the same time so i tried to wave at them back at the same time but it didn't work cause marcus was right in front of me and gerardo was coming from the left so i just looked like a confused idiot lol, anyway marcus got to me like half a second before so i hugged him and then i hugged gerardo (i've been noticing i hug people a lot, maybe too much I don't know) anyway marcus was like "ehh i'll see you tomorrow" and he left and then i asked gerardo what class he had next cause i've never seen him before outside of pre calc or the way to the bus stop (he doesn't take my bus) so he said he didn't have a class and i was like "huh? i thought you were a junior you can't have a home period" and he said he did have a class but he was going to go check his ASVAB results in the career center or something like that, so yeah by that point we were in front of my class so he went back the other way cause the career center is on the opposite side of campus... during chem we just worked on this really easy worksheet and took notes, but i didn't take notes cause i wanted to write on my journal, i left class again early without mr. john noticing and got to the bus stop relatively early, the bus ride home was kind of fun in the calm way

[dark2nightmare]

all i have to say is mr.mc adams sounds cool ^__^

[xxbetsaidaxx]

yes he is an amazingly cool teacher!

not much happened before 1st period so yeah i'll just ff to there, i walked in and there were only a couple of people in there and mr. mcadams was writing something on the board, it said "p. 508 Q's 1-5, groups of 2-3" and then he walked out and went to the class next door, i thought he was still upset cause he never gives us book work like ever, and he never writes things on the board for us he just tells us, but then he came back in the class and went to his podium thing and told the group that was supposed to present today to go up but they weren't ready so he glared at his papers, but then this one dude in the class named john said he was ready so he went up and presented, his presentation was awesome! he made it fun and got the whole class involved instead of just simply talking and he also got mr.mcadams to stop being mad anyway mr. mcadams told us that he had gotten mad yesterday because he felt like he was talking to himself and because we were not responsible enough to do the reading and be prepared with questions and opinions to discuss the book (and he was right, i am really behind in the reading and i think almost everyone else is too) so yeah he's back to being nice and fun again! ;D i think it must really be hard to be a teacher...

during second period i was going to read blood meridian but then i didn't feel like it so i didn't, well not during 2nd period but in the 20 mins we have to read before class actually starts, gerardo was freaking out cause he thought he had broken his cousin's ipod cause it wouldn't turn on so i told him to stop worrying and just read but he didn't have a book so i slided blood meridian to his desk but he said that was not a book you read when you needed to relax (that is VERY true) then I don't know why but i took out The Perks and handed it to him (i've been taking it to school with me cause i'm paranoid and think my evil grandma will 'accidentally' do something to it cause she knows how much it means to me and she hates me) but yeah i told him to read it and he gave me this really weird look and put the book like over his face and i asked him why he was smelling my book and he said he wasn't smelling it that he just does that when he's thinking which was weird, then we talked about my ipod case (i made a new one and it's awesome) and he asked me if he could have the old one and i said i'd make him a new one as a late bday present when i have time, then he started reading The Perks and he didn't stop when class started and mr. naeve started going over last night's hw, i had to tell him to take out a paper when we were supposed to take notes and he was like "huh? oh yeah notes" it was kind of funny, so yeah we took notes for a while and we were done early for once and he said "that's a good book, i couldn't put it down" and i just said "i know" and told him to please not lose it and he said he would and i said i'd kill him if he did (and i think i will kill him if he loses it) so yeah then the bell rang and i said bye and don't lose it again and left, and as soon as i was out the door i realized i had just let someone take my book and i almost started freaking out about it but i convinced myself that it was ok...

then during third i finished the glow effect thing and started working on a citrus design thing, the tutorial for it is super long so I don't know how long it'll take me to finish it, about half way into the class steven asked me where i had gotten the dolphin picture for the dolphin thing i did a while ago and i tried explaining it to him from my seat but he couldn't hear me cause he was too far and i couldn't talk loud enough so yeah i just went under the desk to get to the other row of computers cause i didn't feel like going around and i got my hand tangled in some random cable and almost fell but it was funny and not many people saw my clumsiness so yay! so yeah then i just opened up the dolphin pic for him and took the long way to my seat cause i didn't want to test my luck again and have a desk crush me to death or something like that... nothing really happened for the rest of the day, it was almost exactly the same as yesterday so yeah...

oh and tomorrow's late start day so i don't go in until 9:15 so yay!

[xxbetsaidaxx]

i haven't been here in a long-ish time so i guess i should write something

today was the first day of the semester so i thought it would suck, but surprisingly it didn't

first period was like it usually is (we just talked about blood meridian)... then second was really weird and funny, something happened and i couldn't stop laughing for like 10 mins straight, i'm NOT exaggerating i really couldn't stop laughing, everyone must think i'm crazy now cause i didn't bother to explain the reason behind my uncontrollable laughter (not that i could have explained even if i had tried) but yeah once my little episode was over we had to take notes, and at the end of the period i asked gerardo if he knew where room 303 was and he was like "ehhh not really, sorry" so i told him it was no big deal i'd just walk around the whole school looking lost and crying...

so yeah once out of 2nd i walked over to these two security guys that are always standing near the restrooms and asked them if they knew where 303 was and one of them said it was waaaaaay (yes he did make the 'a' sound long lol) at the corner of the school kind of in front of the cafeteria, so i was like "wow that's just great, thanks" and then the one of them asked me if i wanted a ride (they drive around the school in little golf carts, it's really funny) so i told them thanks but i'd rather walk cause i had to get used to it, so i walked all the waaaaay back to where i thought 303 was and i nearly died! it was right in freaking front of my english class! i felt so stupid for not knowing where it was... anyway i walked in there and sat in the first free seat i saw without even looking around, and then i looked around and i saw a lot of people i knew from my some of my other classes and then i saw michael (that's mr. mcadams' son, the one that was in my weird and pointless dream) so yeah mr. turner talked about the class and all that crap, and then he broke us up into teams cause we were supposed to play hangman with the vocab words, so yeah i was in a team with him and we won! and it was basically cause i'm good at hangman and i knew the vocab beforehand so i just counted the letters and guessed, but yeah after that we just talked about random stuff, and since he couldn't say my name right and he didn't like any of my trillion nicknames he said he'll think of a new one for me hopefully it's not a crappy one lol...

then it was lunch and i went into the library to talk to my counselor (he's actually in the career center but you have to go in through the library cause you have to sign in and all that other stuff) about my classes (i was first going to transfer out of third and get another teacher but i changed my mind after being in the class so yeah i just asked the secretary if she could make sure i was listed as a TA fourth period, and then i didn't feel like talking to anyone so i just stayed in there and read the fountainhead...

then during fourth i helped mr. o make a new seating chart because there were quite a few new people in the class... then i went to my other new class (economics) and i knew exactly where it was because it was next to mr. bedard's room and i spent a lot of time there last year, but yeah anyway i LOOOOOVE my new teacher's voice!! i don't even remember his name right now but his voice is just soooo awesome, it reminds me of the tour guides at universal studios, and he's like super happy so that's great cause it's a break from all the super sad people i've had to deal with lately ;D...

so yeah then i walked to sixth (walked with marcus a bit on the way there of course) and then just pretended to take notes, then i rode the bus home

and i think that's it i think

[xxbetsaidaxx]

i don't feel like writing much today so i'll just write about the semi-interesting things...

during second i couldn't stop smiling and giggling for I don't know what reason, i really hope gerardo didn't think i was being flirty cause i really wasn't, but it must have seemed like i was

i walked really fast to third cause i wanted to get a good seat, so yeah i sat in the desk in front of where michael sat yesterday (i was hoping he would sit in the same place again) so yeah the class started filling up and he walked in and sat down on the same place as yesterday so yay! we just talked about random stuff and then the brandon walked in and i couldn't believe how awesome my luck was *insert sarcasm here* so yeah it was really awkward for the rest of the period

during 5th i sat down and mr. erickson (i remember his name today!!) was on the phone talking to some office people and then he started calling names out of people who had to go to the career center for some reason, so yeah he called my name and about half the class' name, we went to the career center and mrs. thompson told us that they had somehow lost all our finals and we had to retake them so yeah i took the test again, i really didn't mind much cause it was super easy the first time so it was super super easy this time

and nothing much really happened for the rest of the day, except that dev wasn't in school again and i'm kind of getting a bit worried about that, i don't think he would leave without at least saying goodbye but then again they could have just taken him without telling him before so yeah I don't know

[xxbetsaidaxx]

today was a good day... sort of

i woke up around 5:30 and i was cold so i found something warm to wear, then i brushed my hair and i decided it looked ok so i didn't bother straightening it or doing anything else to it, i looked like a vampire (in the bad way) so i put eyeliner and red lipstick on, it didn't help much i think it actually made me look paler but yeah i didn't know what else to do...

nothing really important happened during 1st, well i talked to michael for the first time ever in that class... i got to 2nd and gerardo told me he had gotten me something so i was like "yay!" then he got a can of diet coke out of his bag and gave it to me it was soo adorable, it even had a a little red bow tied to the little opener thing (or whatever you call the thing you push it open with), the rest of the class was pretty suckish because mr.naeve kept being mean and yelling about us not doing the hw, but yeah i just ignored him and played with my adorable dc and my umbrella ;D

i went to talk to mr.walling during lunch to see if he could switch my classes back to how they were (i have chem 3rd now and POD 6th) but he said that i should try my new schedule for a week and if i really hate it i can go see him and he will change it but yeah the only reason i don't like this new schedule is because i don't have any classes with michael so my little goal of getting to know him better won't be reached, but that's not that big a deal... and mr.walling told me he was worried because he had just found out that he might lose his job because of budget cuts that is really really sad because he's one of the best counselors in the school, he really cares about students

i think that's all that happened today, well everything worth writing about anyway

...I don't know if i should drink my diet coke or not...

[xxbetsaidaxx]

i can't sleep, so i'll just write in here

not much happened this week, on tuesday during luch i didn't feel like being with anyone so i just went and sat down in a little platform thing in front of the career center/library and started reading the iceman cometh, i was supposed to be finished with it but i wasn't, then i looked up and michael was climbing the platform thing and then he sat with me and i was just "helloooo" and he asked me if i had written the essay 1st period and i told him i had only done the intrp and half of a paragraph but it sucked and he told me he hadn't done any of it and i asked why and he said because he hadn't read the play cause his dad (mr. mcadams) had stolen his book to use during class so i asked him if he wanted to borrow my copy and he said no he'd just get his copy back, then i asked him if he still had turner third and he said he did and that i should switch back, then this one girl named tia or something like that came and we all just talked about random junk , she kept complaining about how hot it was and it was really cold so it was annoying... then on wednesday i went to see mr. walling and i asked him to switch me back to turner third and chem sixth and he agreed but he didn't want to do it cause he wanted me to still have lininger but i don't like him cause he's weird and talks to students as if they were five years old or whatever and i think he's going through a midlife crisis (i didn't say that of course)... then yesterday i had a quiz for precalc and i was sooo lost i just left everything blank cause i had no clue what to do, i think i should form a study group or something I don't know, so i just took out wuthering heights and started reading cause there was nothing else to do, then gerardo took it from me and started reading it and he asked me if he could borrow it for the weekend and i said yes but he had to get it to me before 1st period cause i would need it for class and i told him i had 309 so he should take it there and he said he would so yeah, i'm probably going to get behind on the reading cause i was supposed to read it over the weekend but i don't think that's such a big deal

all this week's been really calm and boring... i have to walk like three times as much to the closest bus stop, but that's ok... oh and i had saturday school this morning cause i had 10 truancies according to the attendance people , but i don't, that would be like a a full day and then 4 periods of unjustified absences but my mom cleared all of them and i had notes from the doctor's so yeah i didn't go, I don't know what they're going to do about it, i really don't care

[xxbetsaidaxx]

today was really boring...

mr.mcadams wasn't there during 1st period so we had a sub, we were supposed to read Wuthering Heights but i only read that for like ten minutes and i gave up on it (i don't want to say i hate the book, but i really don't like it so far) i took out Dracula and started reading that, it's a REALLY amazing novel ...

during 2nd we finished the test we started yesterday, well i didn't finish it because i'm completely lost at the moment in that class. Gerardo dropped the class on tuesday i think i should do the same...

since mr. mcadams wasn't there today Mich wasn't there either, the class is extremely boring and annoying without him. Some girls sat behind me and were really loud. i couldn't even hear my music and it was at a somewhat high volume, i turned it up even more and i could still hear them so i turned around and said "could you please try not to scream in my ear? i'm trying to read and you guys are making it quite difficult" they said sorry and weren't so loud for the rest of the period oh and we had a sub there too, i didn't even notice it until the period was almost over...

during lunch i went and sat by the career center and Bryan came over and i told him to get his butt in class before i called the campus security (he has second lunch, i wouldn't call the campus security on him of course) he said his teacher wasn't there so we just talked about whatever, then this one dude that always says he loves my hair (it was nice for the first few times but now it's kind of annoying) walked up to us and i asked him if he was ditching like the loser next to me and he said "nah i'm going to take a calculus test in the library, i'll come back when i'm done with it, oh and i love your boots by the way" i was wearing my sister's boots so i told him they weren't even mine and that there were only like 10 mins left of lunch so he probably wouldn't finish, then he said bye and left. i looked at Bryan and he looked really mad, it was weird. I asked him what was up and he said nothing, and then he said "we're going to the movies after school, be at ben's around 4, i'm not asking you if you're going, i'm telling you" i was like "ok mr.pushy, who else is going?" and he was like "same as always" so i was like ok i'm picking the movie ("same as always" means ben and mayra)...

during 5th we had a test, i think i did fairly well except for the essay question because i was literally falling asleep. i read the prompt at least 10 times and i couldn't understand a word of it, it wasn't like it was hard or anything now that i think about it. it was about building permits rising when mortgage interests fell and we just had to explain what it was that made that happen...

during 6th the class just worked on some problems that i don't care about, i told mr. john i had a headache so i would sleep during his class and he asked me if i wanted to go to the nurse, i told him no and that i just needed some sleep, he said it was fine and he would try to keep the class quiet :)that was nice of him...

i think that's all... the movie we saw was coraline and it was awesome

[xxbetsaidaxx]

wow i hadn't written in here for over a month things have pretty much followed the same boring routine...

i woke up, got ready for school, my mom drove me to the bus stop. i got to school and walked around for a bit but it was cold so i went in the library and waited for first period to begin

during 1st period we had to work on our India presentations (we're reading A Passage To India so we're researching Indian history and culture) and Mr. McAdams called people over to see their grade, i have a d!! it's so horrible! i haven't done like 4 essays and i didn't do anything of the work for Wuthering Heights, he asked me if everything was ok and i told him that everything is ok, but everything is obviously not ok but yeah there's no use in telling him i wasn't ok. i'm going to try to do most of the work i've missed...

Mr. Naeve wasn't there today again, he hasn't been there since monday. we were supposed to work on an assignment but i didn't feel like doing it and i was extremely tired because i hadn't slept in two days so i just put my head down and surprisingly enough i was able to sleep the bad thing is that after i woke up i was even more tired than before

third period was kind of boring, Mich was there but he wasn't hyper like he usually is so yeah it sucked. we had to work on a worksheet but i did not have the book with me so i wasn't able to do it. i just read for almost the entire period... then lunch was really boring and annoying because people kept bugging me, i felt like telling them to buzz off but i didn't cause i didn't want to be mean...

i did absolutely nothing in fourth so i was bored out of my mind. i kept half falling asleep, but i didn't want to put my head down because then the freshmen would think it was ok to sleep in class and i'm supposed to set an example for them, Mr. O wouldn't have told me anything but still... figures i'd keep almost falling asleep where i'm not supposed to sleep and i can't sleep at night

some lady from San Joaquin Valley College came over and gave a presentation during fifth. it was kind of cool, she gave us this activity where we had to create a budget for a month and it was really surprising how hard it was to save even $100 after rent and everything else. last week we had another presentation, but it was from Devry University, that one was good too because we took a personality/interest test and it said i'm a "do-it-yourselfer" (that was literally what it said lol)

I don't know why but i didn't really feel like seeing Marcus today so i took the long-ish way to my sixth period. i went in and dropped my bag in my table and went outside like i always do because i get claustrophobic in there if i stay inside too long. i saw Phillips (dude that always said he loved my hair who's name i didn't remember, we've been talking a lot lately and he walks me to a few of my classes because his are close by) by the water fountain so i walked over to him and he's like "that's like the coolest sweater ever! it's blue!" and i said thanks, then he asked me if there was anything i wanted to ask him and i was like "uhhhhh how tall are you?" it was a lame question and he was expecting something more important but i couldn't think of anything, anyway he said he was 6"1' which is pretty awesome. he said he'd call me today, and he did about an hour ago but i was IMing my sis (who's in the room next door lol) so i missed the call and i didn't feel like calling him back... anyway i went back inside the classroom and we had a test, it was multiple choice so i just guessed and then wrote in my journal for the rest of the period, then i rode the bus home...